Still studying. Yuck. Yuck. Yuck. Pray for me, readers. I just can’t wait till it’s over.
Yesterday I posted some excerpts from my journals about wanting purpose in my life. About finding a career. And you know what? Those prayers were answered. Honest. Just take a look at the next few months of prayers. You’ll see.
“The library for the church started today. We put all the books out on a table, and we already filled the entire table on the first day. I’m excited. I am now a church librarian. Hmm. Where will this lead?” -03/26/06
“‘The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?’ (Psalm 20:24). This verse explains my current situation. I don’t understand why God has given me this job, why I am in Hawaii, what my ministry is, or where I am going. I keep praying for clarity, but this verse seems to say, ‘It will come with time. Enjoy the experience.’ A difficult concept. ‘Make your way plain for me to follow’ (Psalm 5:8). I have been praying this verse for the next step—and the next ministry—in my life. I have been toying with the idea of entering a masters program studying Library and Information Sciences. It seems that God has been confirming this through close friends and encouragement from my family. It seems fitting, but I don’t want to chase down another rabbit’s trail. I am waiting to see what God wants me to do. I don’t want to rush into it.” -01/31/07
“I’m worried when I finish with school, I won’t be content. What if I graduate and decide I don’t want to be a librarian? You know how nervous I get with new jobs and transitions and change. I need you to take me through this in small steps. Don’t allow me to back down if this is right. Give me an excitement and a passion to do this if it is your will for me.” -02/07/07
“Brandon is worried about paying for school if I go back. How do I respond to that? What do I do? If you are directing me to library studies, then I need you to show me.” – 06/24/07
“Lord, I am so blessed. You have truly shown your abundant love and grace to me these past two months. You have answered my prayers so completely. Thank you for this new job at the University. Not only does it provide a $10,000 a year raise, but I am no longer exhausted when I come home. It’s flexible enough to allow me to go back to school and provides a tuition waiver! You have made it clear you want me to pursue library sciences. Within two weeks of finding out about this job, you’ve shown me a clear purpose. Thank you for your faithfulness.” -07/15/07
And there you have it. A quick little glimpse into the journey leading up to my new purpose in life. I like the reminder. It gives me something to cling to when I feel like I have no life and all I do is study and I’m pulling my hair out in irritation.
Two days.
How blessed I am as I read these very private pages from your journal! God bless you as you continue down the path He is leading you.